Great Dislike

Is it a bad thing that i hate my sister in law. I mean i have my reasons. The fact that she hurt my brother emotionaly sort of hit home. But is it bad that i hate her. I mean i could dislike her...but hate is strong.

I feel like i never get any alone time with my brother anymore. When he leaves for work i always tell him; "Bye, I love you." And he always said "love you too." But now he can't say it because she gets joulous saying that he loves me and my mom more then he loves her. But she has got to understand that it's a different kind of love that he holds for my mother and I.

I wonder how it's going to be on my birthday...they got married last year on my birthday. The word anger doens't even start to describe what i felt. But the one thing i regreat the most is thtat i didn't get to see it. I had to excuse of having a math test that hour. And at that point i would have held on to any excus eto not see this unholy union. But now i feel this guilt. That I caould have retaken the test at a later date. I should have gone to see my brother marry her. Even though i didn't like her.

He asked me what i thought about him marrying her. The only anower i can come up with at that time is. "If she makes you Happy then do it." And i still stand by that. If she makes him happy then stand by her. But i don't see that. I see a lot of repeative arguement that are staring to get on my nerves.

She's self centerd. She never thinks of others feeling when she talks. She think only of herself and never about others(Yes i know that i just saidn the same thing in three differnet ways) It's hard to know that my brother can't pick me up form school after finals and take me to lunch anymore becuas eif she finds out it's starts a fight. Or that he can't take me to school on Monday mornings. Or if he does he has to do it secreat. She can't find out. I hate that. He was mine way before she met him and he'll always be mine. In a different way.

Okay maybe i don't hate her. I just have a GREAT dislike for her.

Kassandra