Decisions, Decisions

hey guys.

I've been sort of in a weird mood lately, and i finally talked to my beta about it, and came to some decisions.

Lately i just haven't felt like writing, fact is that...i just don't want to. I feel like it's been something I HAVE to do, instead of something I WANT to do. I feel like i'm making myself write chapters and i hate that feeling. Stories that I love to write, have not been touched since my beta sent me the beta'd chapters months ago.

Then chapters i know you guys want, haven't been coming out, and i just don't want to force myself to write something that just isn't there. I have plans for some, but in order to either get stories there, or to write them, i need to take my time. I need to go at my own pace.

I like haveing Pre-written chapters. As do many of the authors, that I talk to. I love haveing pre-written things, because then while I post one, I have five done, and I feel no pressure to finsh the other ones. And certain stories need to be pre written.

So i've decided to take a break...I have no idea for whole long, maybe until I'm cought up, maybe until I feel like I've adjusted into my written sceudle and school again, or until I feel like i'm writeing out of my own free will.

I know that I won't be posting once a week anymore...that's for sure. I feel like it's more for me to try and get everything done a certain time a week.

I also know that even though i'm taking a break i will still be posting one-shots here and there...for some reason, i'm in a one shot sort of mood.

So that's all. I know all of you were looking forward to new chapters on Monday, I haven't gotten anything finshed.

So just know that i'll keep posting here on my blog, a few one shots...but for the multichapter stories...you won't be seeing those for a while.

I'm not abonding them or you guys...just taking a much needed break.

Kassandra

Making Up For It

Hey Guys!

I updated Rejection Hotline Started It All and I'm working on the next chapter. I'm close to being half done. lol

I also posted For Everything Else which is a One-shot PDLD based on a joke anna gave me last week, and I just had to write it. It's so finn!

Right now i'm about half done with The Aftermath and I'm hoping that I will be up by next week, on Monday night, the day before school starts. As well as Rejection Hotline Started It All and keeping my fingers crossed but The Fear of Rejection as well

Also I'm doing a Rogan One shot called Baby, You're Beautiful based on an icon, that I have. I'm hoping to have that up next week too. But I'm really doubtful that I'll have all this up by next Monday only because I'm busy most of this rest of this week.

Tommrow I have nothing planned, but I get up around eleven, Talk to my beta(if she's online) till two or till sleep overtakes her and write, Then me and my cousin might end up going to Payless to return shoes for different sizes.

Friday, I have Senior Portirats at 1:30, And that will last forty five minutes to an hour, depending. I'll post those pics when I get a chance.

Saturday, I'm going to a birthday party for twin One Year olds. Thier my mom's friends kids. So while thier sleeping an hour into the party, my cousin and I will be listening to my mom and her friends that she use to work with complin about helath plans or crap like that. Also my mom is taking us back to school shopping, and also we're going to look at Senior rings for me.

Sunday i will have the day free from 1:30 to seven. So i'm going to try and write then.

Then Next monday, I'm going to the High School with my cousin so she can get her classes, and thier going to take her on a tour, and that's at one thirty i belive.

Then Tuesday I start my senior year. SCORE!

I would just like to point out that my classes this trimester are.

• Anatomy
• Alegebra II
• Latin I
• Guitar I
• American Goverenment

I would like to say that i want to do really good this year, Even though i'm applying to community collage, I still want to end my senior year with everything higher then a C-, So Updateing will be far and inbetween. I might even try and prewrite things before posting.

I hate being rushed to write things. As hard as it may be to belive, I really don't ahve control over what my mind decides to write. I have this thing where if i have a scence in my head for a long while, and I can't get myself to forget it. I have to write it. Even if it's a new story, or a non posted story or if it's posted. The Aftermath, Rejection Hotline Started It all, The Tales of a Broken Heart and all the One Shots i've been posting are those that i can't get out of my head. lost and Found, Dolls, Malls, and any other ones' i've been neglecting, just haven't had any scenes in my mind that have really shouted for me to write yet.

Trust me, when i get them, you'll hear my beta shouteing in joy that I sent her thoses chapters. I jhust really don't like rushing, Which is why I've been updating at least one once a week, It's mosty likely that i have those pre-written or it's had my attention.

Just letting everyone know, that some may be posted more then others, while others may be put in the backseat. I've been in a PDLD and Rogan mood lately. PDLD mostly. As you can see, as I've been updating almost all my PDLD's.

I just wnated to let you guys know. So Lost and Found and You and Only You hav been put on the back burner, along with a few others that you havne't seen updated in a while. I will finsh them! I plan to finsh all my stories. Just not now. I know it's fustrating for you,a nd you guys probally hate me for it, but i don't like forcing myself to write, I feel like thier crappy and i don't wnat to give you guys crappy chapters. I want to give you good ones, that i can feel personally feel good about, insted of wincing when i see a rushed one.

I don't know, It's just me.

Thats It for now. Next post will be one Monday, Of what....we'll see when we get there won't we!

Kassandra

Inspiration

Hey Guys,

I Love this icon, Laughed when i saw it lol. Hope you guys laughed to.

I've posted new Chapters to The Tales of a Broken Heart and Rejection Hotline Started It All last thursday. You All have my beta to thank for that. She did NOT withhold the chapters from me lol. I want to thank you all for the reveiws, I'm glad you're all enjoying these two stories.

As for The Aftermath You'll be glad to know that I figured out what I'm going to do for the next chapter. I'm going to start writing it tommorow night, since todays time on the comp is limited. So be expecting that sometime this coming week as well as Rejection Hotline Started It All.

Sorry for the short update on this. Just wanted to let you guys know!

That's it For Now.

Kassandra

Not In The Mood

Hey Guys.

Only one person got the Pic question, which happened to be my best friend and she cheated. So no one gets the cookie...Sorry.

This weeks pic. is me and my cousin. she is going to kill me for putting up that pic...but oh well lol. This is us in front of my comp.

updates for this week are going to be Rejection Hotline Started It All. and The Tales of A Broken Heart. When, hopefully by Thursday(Hint Hint) I'm hoping my beta won't hold TToaBH ransom until I cough up a Gerard story for her. Damn now i'm giving her ideas.

For some reason, i haven't really been in a writing mood. As much as i try and try to write, i just can't. I've been reading a lot...much to the plsure of my beta, seeing as i'm getting closer and closer to reading the fic that she wants me to read lol. But i seem to have a block for all my stories. I'm hoping that it's because i'm, not in school, and trying to find time in school to write, is more fun for me instead of actually having time to write like i do now. I'm very weird like that.

I'm hoping to finsh RHSIA soon, as well as The Fear of Rejection. At least the chapter, cause the story still has a ways to go.

Another reason why i'm not udating everything, is because I've been starting a whole bunch of new stories.

One of them being These Hazing Days which will be loosly based on the film Dazed and Confused...soley because me and my cousin have been wacthing that movie everyday for the past two weeks. (OKAY!...Slater says it....funny!) IT's going to be very AU and an Eventual Trory. Rated M for Cursing and implications of drug use. You also get to see a very different side of Rory. lets just say hazing brings out the worst in her lol. IT's going to be a pretty short fic. Short in my standerds...meanign about ten chapters or so.

Another new story that i have is the Supernatural PDLD now called Tough Love That one is probally my favorite to write to. Cause it's something so different. I love writing it. I have four chapters done and i'm in the middle of the Fifth.

Another one is a Rogan called Parallel Life Which is another fun on to write. It goes a bit fast, Getting to the plat almost instatly, but it works. This one was started before my Europe Trip then was rewritten afterwords due to the fact that I went to Monnocco and found out how it could change. This story has a lot of Rory and Robert and them having a secret life, Which doesn't involve around thier friends(Logan, Colin and Finn) It's also AU.

Antoehr ROgan i have int he works. Is not yet named but goes by Adoption Rogan And as the name goes. Rory and Logan grow up in a orpahnage, and grow up to be best friend. But they loose each other after being adopted at six and seven. They end up going to the same boarding school and end up reconeccting. But when Rory turns 18 she finds out the turth about who her parents are...and well. Theres where the twist comes in as well as the stress of thier realtionship. I really have no idea how i came up with this. But I like the idea.so i'm sticking to it.


So though i've been writing. I just having been wanting to write to the other ones i already ahve posted. I have fun writing them, but for some reason i just havn't been able to sit down and write nythign to them. But they will be updated and finshed I swear!!

Kassandra

New Posts

Hey Guys.

This is my Cousins Supposes "boyfriend" For whoever Gets the right answer, and says who it is...Gets.....a cookie!! Yeah a cookie!!

I posted two new chapters. Rejection Hotline Started it All and The Tales of a Broken Heart.

For thoses who can't tell, i've been in a PDLD mood lately, No idea why. Just have been. I'm trying to write the next chapter in Once Upon a Time but i just haven't been able to, same with The Aftermath. But i'm trying.

Also i've been writing two new Rogans, that i will be posting in the near future. as well as the new PDLD, once Rejection Hotline Started It all is finshed, which may or may not be soon....depending on the answer my beta gives me, Which will be coming on the last chapters that i've sent her...which i will be receiving soon....Right???

my week consists of stuff. Tommorw we're waking up early so that we can enroll my cousin into school. Wednesday, we have to go back to the school so i can get my regestration packet. Then Wednesday i'm going to go To Payless with my cousin so we can look at shoes...i mean what else is there to do at payless.

Other then that, and as my beta well knows and gets plesure out of this. I have a moutin of fanfic stories that i've been wanting to read since i got back forom Europe. Through the number has dwindeled to 29(Yes flynn, 29! I was just as shocked as you!) It's still there and bugging me.

Another thing that's been bugging me is a story that i wrote a long time ago. A Droco Herminone story. And since i've been reading a bunch of thoses fanfics, i've been wanting to write mine. I'm a HP fan, but npot much of one where i know every little detail like GG. But I've been really wanting to write it. So...that's another thing that's been on my mind.

IDK, my mind is really scattered right now. I really wnat school to start, so i can get back to my regualr sedule...you know, blowing off Homework so i can write. Yea, good old days.

That's it for now.

Kassandra

One-shot

Hey Guys!! Sorry for not posting sooner!!

This pic, Is of me at the Vatican. I know a few people have been wanting to see some pics of me on my Europe Trip. So here's one. I'm going to be posting more on a seperate blog, and putting up the link soon. Just once I get off my lazy bum and start doing it lol.

my week has been preet uneventful, My cousin moved in with us, cause she's going to do a year of high school here, instead of in mexico. So we've been trying to set her up. Meaning I get the top buck(Which I hate) while she gets bottom bunk(Where i usually sleep) with her dog! Yes she brought her dog! lol. I'm excited about her being here though, I rarely get to see my family, so i love it when they come to Cali to visit us. Her older sister stayed here last year for about three months, so i'm glad that she's staying here for longer...the question is will we be able to put up with each other for a year?? I think so!! lol.

As For writing i'm so behind. I know a lot of you hve been asking for The Aftermath, and I feel bad, cause even though it's the first story i look at and try writing when i get up, it just isnt' coming. I can't get this one part out, An di need this part out in order to get to the parts i do want to write, in order to get to the plot. So it's being fustrating.

The Fear of Rejection: I have yet to even look at that one since I got back sadly. But i know what i want written, the thing is to write it lol.

The Tales of a Broken Heart: I have Part 10 done and Beta'd but i don't want to post it, till i have at least two other chapters done and ready to post. I just don't like being behind on that one. I like to have that one pre-written.

Once Upon a Time: I really really want to write that chapter, solely for a finn/Rory convo, that me and my beta have been dieing to use! (you know which one!) But once Agian I haven't found time for it.

Lost and Found: I'm really wanting to finsh that one off. And i know how i want to end it...it's just not at that point yet. I'm trying to write to it....just give me a few more weeks lol.

Tough Love: My supernatual PDLD, is coming along, i'm really proud of it, I just want to add a few more things to the prolauge and fish at least one story, before Posting it. But it's one that i want people to read. It's really different, and i like the way i'm writing it. If you guys have read the romance novel Night Play by Sherrilyn Kenyon Think Vane and Bride...only they both have poswer...and have a lot of fucked up issues to deal with lol.

I also Have a Rogan in the works, that i'm still Working on, It has to do with Monnoco....not saying more then that. But i will be posting that one...when....i have no idea lol.

For right now though, I leave you With a quick One Shot. full of fluff! So I hope you all enjoy A Shoulder to Lean On!

Thats it for now!

Kassandra